Unforgivable

What do you do when you make a mistake you can’t fix? When you break someone’s heart you can’t mend? When you lose someone’s trust you can’t earn back? When life looks at you like you’re the worst living being alive and you can’t do anything else but look back? Life sucks doesn’t it. Welcome to my world.

I’m too much of a coward to go into the details of what I did, but to the core I made a promise to someone, gained their trust and then broke the promise. Unforgivable isn’t it? I never thought I’d be the kind of guy who would do that. I grew up believing that men who did that were not real men at all. I broke every moral that I lived by. I lost any semblance of character that I had. I lost respect for myself . And yet what can I do to change it? Nothing.

I know I will get my due someday and I’m ready to accept it. But it still doesn’t make things any better. I hope life will give me the opportunity to redeem myself. If not then I will die a very troubled soul and that shall be the curse of my existence.